I've long since been of the belief that one of the reasons I don't have many friends is my off-beat sense of humor. I'm sure there are other character flaws I have, but that has to be the topper. The problem is I know where my sense of humour comes from, why it developed, but it's become such an integral part of my personality that it's impossible to get rid of it or even tone it down without becoming a totally different person, and frankly for the most part I like myself.
Childhood pain, gotta love it. That's where the humour was born, at first of a need for acceptance but then as a way of keeping people distant. It works beautifully, let me tell you. I can make people laugh and I love that sound. It can be addictive. But maybe it's my particular brand of humour that people don't want to be around all that often.
Oh well, I've resigned myself to a lonely life. I have ways to keep myself amused, thanks to books, television, and my computer. I don't need anyone else.
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by Tabby at 9/18/2004 12:40:00 a.m.